Weekly Window Shopping

Autumn is my favorite time of the year. I love everything about it — the way the air smells, the brightly colored leaves, the brisk mornings and slightly warmer afternoons, the sounds of kids going back to school, the occasional smell of wood burning in a fireplace on a particularly cool night. I especially love the fashion. I love sweaters and nubbier fabrics, suede shoes and handbags, textured tights, chunkier heels. Last autumn I bought absolutely no new clothes. I was still trying to shed some of the pregnancy weight, and of course the year before I was very pregnant and nothing fit me. So, it’s been a while since I’ve added anything new to my autumnal wardrobe.

My sweaters are threadbare and slightly holey. My shoes are on their last legs. I have no tights whatsoever in my drawers. And, I’ve developed a penchant for skinnier pants and longer shirts. This is shocking if you know me, since you may have never seen me in any anything but a skirt or dress.

The other night in a moment of self-pity and exhaustion I decided to shirk my work for a few minutes and browse Zappos. That is where I stumbled across these beauties, which also come in black, red and a bright royal blue.

I plan to buy these in black, and if I can foot it, maybe a pair in red or royal blue for those days when I’m feeling bold and in need of some color therapy.

Of course this got me thinking, and so did a belted cardigan I saw someone wearing on tv. When I was pregnant I lived in belted cardigans, mostly because they allowed me to extend my summer maternity dresses into fall and winter without spending a ton of extra money on clothes I had no intention of wearing again after leaving the hospital. (I did not yet know about the 10 months on, 10 months off thing.) They kind of grew on me during that time, and now I find myself wanted some in non-maternity sizes.

In any case, the shoes inspired me. So I present to you my look for autumn. I’m pretty sure all these items, or others in the same vein, will make it into my closet. They are pretty and cozy, and they do not lack in interesting textures. And when I think of autumnal fashion, this is what I think of.

The Year 2000

This time of year, when September is around the corner, I feel wistful and simultaneously excited, my belly filled with butterflies. It’s almost school time. Everywhere I look I see new backpacks and back-to-school clothes and school supplies. Don’t get me started on school supplies. I love them.

The pens, the pencils, notebooks. I would give just about anything to have my Trapper Keeper from the 4th grade. It was the most beautiful thing in the world. Imagine a 1970s van with an airbrushed unicorn/Pegasus flying through the clouds. Now imagine that image on a Trapper Keeper instead of a van. I loved it so much that I just spent 30 minutes trying to find my old Trapper Keeper on eBay.

I loved all of the stuff associated with school, but most of all I loved the homework. And even more than the dioramas and the popsicle stick models I loved one assignment. An assignment we had nearly every year.

The Year 2000.

The assignment was simple — imagine the year 2000 and write about it, draw it or both.

My year 2000 always looked the same. There were flying cars and houses that floated in the sky. We all wore foil clothes and rocket shoes. We coexisted peacefully with the Martians and Vulcans in a utopian society with no litter and no pollution. It was always a perfectly-Zahra sort of future — one filled with technology and green, peaceful ideals. It was a world I hoped to live in one day, and certainly the year 2000 was so far off that we would achieve all these things by then.

I loved this assignment because there was something about envisioning a future I wanted to see that gave me hope and carried me through the dark times. And there were many dark times. Over the years, the year 2000 became a place I escaped to when I couldn’t stand being where I was. I built it up, adding layers and layers to this imaginary world of mine.

And then one day it was just around the corner. I wasn’t where I wanted to be in life, and there was all this Y2k business. Apparently the world was coming to an end, or at least my bank account would be wiped out at the stroke of midnight.

That New Years Eve I stayed home, bundled up in a blanket with a pot of coffee, and watched the year turn in Sydney, Hong Kong, London. I didn’t make it up for New York.

The next morning I woke up. The world was still spinning, the banks were still standing, the government had not fallen. The grass was covered with frost, confetti, broken glass and cigarette butts. The year 2000 was here, and it was nothing like I imagined. I had no rocket shoes and my car still drove on the ground. My closet was devoid of space age fabrics, and first contact had not yet happened. But it was another morning and I was still here. That part of my childhood imaginings came true.

The world was still and silent as I walked outside in my robe, a mug of black coffee warming my hands, my bare feet scraping across the icy cement, and watched the squirrels search for food on the frozen ground.

Always Crunch Time

Today was my first day back at work after BlogHer. It sucked.

I returned from BlogHer with renewed ambitions for this little blog of mine. I was inspired by the many amazing women I met, by the conversations I had, by the sessions I attended, the presentations I heard. I was teeming with ideas, and I had the best of intentions to get started on them right away.

Then life got in the way. Actually, work got in the way. Actually, I meant both, since lately my life is work. And I hate this. This time of year is typically crunch time in the business I’m in. The problem is that it is never not crunch time for me. I can’t remember the last time I came home and did not have to immediately open my laptop and get right back to work. And I can’t remember the last time I wasn’t still working 5 hours later, well after Azita has gone to bed and I’ve missed any chance of spending any quality time with her when she’s awake.

If it was just a couple weeks or even a month or even two months out of the year, I’d be fine with this. But it’s not. And I miss my daughter. And I can’t think.

I don’t just have writer’s block. I have designer’s block. I have student’s block. I have exerciser’s block. I have every kind of block there is when it comes to the other parts of my life that make my life worth living.

All these ideas are bottled up inside me, and I can’t get around to even thinking about them until the clock strikes “6 hours before I have to get up again.” It’s always crunch time — 24/7, 52 weeks a year — and I’m tired of it.

The worst part is that I have no idea how to make this better. Anyone know the secret? If you do, please share. I’m desperate, and these dark circles under my eyes are out of control.

Getting Through Writer’s Block, or Azita’s Adventures in New York

This past week I went to Blogher’10. I actually didn’t plan on going. I’m glad I did. It was a great experience, even if I admittedly did let my shyness get the better of me a bit. It was still so great, and I was lucky to attend a few good sessions, including one on creativity. I have a lot to share, but I’ve fallen prey to writer’s block. One of the things I learned in this session, however, is that it is important to write every day. And, it’s okay to post a bunch of pictures with captions if you are suffering from blockage as I am at the moment.

So without further explanation, I give you Azita’s Adventures in New York.

Azita has never traveled  by train or plane or boat or basically anything other than a car and the DC metro or bus. We were nervous about this trip, and rightfully so. She was a terror.

Having fun

And just when I thought things couldn’t possibly get worse, the train started moving. She lost it.

The train gets moving

At least it was a relatively short trip. After what seemed like the longest 3 hours and change in my life, we finally arrived in New York…

Hotel beds are so comfortable

and all was still good.

Still in love

In fact, all was better than good once Azita discovered Central Park.

What is this place?

Central Park is magic for adults and children, alike. We ran through the grass.

Running through the grass

She played in a couple amazing playgrounds. She ran across cobblestones.

Running on the cobblestones

She met lots of old men and flirted mightily.

Flirting

She sat on an old and intricate park bench and watched the people walking to and fro.

People watching

It made her thirsty.

Beverage break

And, finally. FINALLY. It made her tired.

It's been a long day and an even longer night

And not only did we make it, but we had the time of our lives.

Cousins

There’s nothing better than having cousins. Azita met some cousins for the first time last week. She immediately loved them. It was like she knew they were related, because while she loves all kids, I’ve never seen her open up to people so instantly.

At the Udvar Hazy Air & Space Museum

At the Udvar Hazy Air & Space Museum

I love how happy they are. So filled with unadulterated glee. The look on their faces, running through a museum, captures so exactly how I remember playing with my cousins in my childhood. Except with a little less wrestling. And no He-Man and Voltron.

At Least I’m Not Foaming At the Mouth

Last night I woke up in need of a biology break, but also because there was something I really wanted to blog about. I meant to write it down, but I was too lazy to get up and find paper and pen and I’ve never gotten around to leaving paper and pen on my night stand for this sort of situation. This, even though I realized I should do this about 16 years ago when I was in college and frequently woke up needing to write something down. That’s how lazy I am. 16 years later, and I STILL haven’t taken care of this little task. Also, I opted to just sleep with an increasingly uncomfortably full bladder, because well, I didn’t feel like getting out of bed nor walking to the bathroom. I think I’m the laziest person in the world.

So anyways, all day I’ve been trying to remember what is was I wanted to write about, and I still can’t remember. But then I was looking through some old pictures in an attempt to jog my memory, and something got jogged. I still can’t remember what I wanted to write about, but I have been stricken with a major case of nostalgia.

When I look at Azita running across our living room in a little onesie or curled up next to me in bed, she looks so teeny tiny. It’s hard for me to remember just how much tinier she was when she was born. She was this tiny….

Azita: Day 1

Azita: Day 1

Notice that her head is almost smaller than my hand. I just can’t fathom this now, because well, her head is a lot bigger than my hand now.

And her head was also mostly bald.

Bald baby in French fashion

Bald baby in French fashion

This is another thing that is completely incomprehensible to me, because she now shows all signs of having inherited both her maman and baba’s thick heads of hair. And look at those eyes. She’s killing me with those eyes. I think when I was taking this picture it was the first time I realized that she wasn’t just looking in my direction, but she was really seeing me and almost communicating with her eyes. They were so expressive, and it was unbelievable to think that just a few weeks before that she basically slept all the time. It makes me tear up a little to think of it. To think of how sweet little babies are and how quickly they grow up.

And that’s the thing, you know. They do grow up. And they become toddlers who refuse to go to bed and refuse to eat. And on nights like tonight when she’s done both and I have a good 3 hours or more of work to do. And she won’t stop climbing on me and REFUSING to go to sleep even though she is clearly exhausted to the point of tears. On nights like this, it is good to feel a little nostalgic and to remember that even when she’s causing great pains in my arse she is always my sweet little slip of a thing. My little baby.

Where was I again? Oh yeah. I need to put some pen and paper on my nightstand. And also, Azita is now slapping my face while yelling “Mama.” I have no words.

And I know that was completely incoherent, but at least I’m not foaming at the mouth. So clearly I don’t have rabies. In case you were wondering.

Dancing with Abandon

My little dancer

My little dancer

Azita has always loved dancing. When she was an infant she would bob her head a little, flail her arms and wiggle around as best as she could whenever she would hear a beat. Most of her dancing since she started walking has consisted of her walking, running or galloping around in a circle. Occasionally, believe it or not, she actually plays air guitar. Don’t look at me. She learned it from Muno on Yo Gabba Gabba. Honest. I only play air guitar in private.

Lately, however, her dancing has taken a different tone. She is more expressive in her movements. She moves her arms in slow waving motions, sometimes even flexing and pointing her fingers while turning her hand like only a budding Bollywood dancer could.

At times she seems to be doing her best impression of Martha Graham. She moves her torso slowly from side to side, lunging in an opposing motion. Occasionally she lifts a leg off to the side or the back, keeping her toes perfectly pointed. It’s an amazing thing, and I can’t help but get ridiculously happy when she’s dancing.

Inevitably I end up dancing with her. This is impressive mostly because I am the very definition of a wallflower when it comes to dancing. I will do almost anything to avoid it. I have been known to play a little tug of war with family members who have tried to pull me out onto the dance floor at parties. I know it looks ridiculous when I do this, but I feel even more ridiculous when I dance. I just know people are laughing at me.

When Azita dances, though, I forget about all of that. I sing along with the music. She grabs my hands, and we dance together. I don’t care who is looking, nor do I care what they think. We dance with abandon. And it’s the best feeling in the world.

Khanoom Manners

Maybe it’s my Iranian upbringing, but I am obsessed with good manners. Namely I spend a good deal of time and thought making sure that at the end of my life I will always be known as a good host and a polite guest. It’s important to me, as it is to most Iranians. Like many Eastern cultures good manners for Iranians are a bit ritualistic. The Japanese have their tea ceremony, the Chinese have their special handshakes, and Iranians have taarof. We also place great importance on making our guests feel at home and in not inconveniencing our hosts when we are guests ourselves.

So I am always more than a little nonplussed when entertaining guests who are, well, let’s just say very non-Iranian.

I’d be sure it was a cultural difference, but how would one then explain Miss Manners? Or the fact that Roger, who’s about as American as one can be, places as much importance on good manners as I do?

Maybe our parents and grandparents’ generations are right, and the country is going to hell in a hand basket. I have faith that we can do better. And while I’m no Miss Manners, I’m pretty sure in the near future you will be seeing the occasional post on proper etiquette in different cultures.

Curry Cauliflower Soup

This weekend I did a little experimenting in the kitchen. I had a few bags of frozen cauliflower, some vegetable odds and ends in the fridge and the dregs of a jar of hot curry paste. And that is how curry cauliflower soup came into existence.

Now, I realize that based on the above description, you likely think this soup sounds disgusting. I mean, I did use the terms “odds and ends” and “dregs” in the previous paragraph. Thus I present to you evidence to the contrary:

Curry Cauliflower Soup

Curry Cauliflower Soup

Convinced yet? If not, I assure you it is tasty, and Roger will confirm this fact. Just check out his tweets. He even called himself a lucky guy.

So without further ado…

Ingredients

  • 2 bags of frozen cauliflower, thawed and diced
  • 1 large onion, diced
  • 1 green and 1 red bell pepper, diced
  • 2 large carrots, peeled and diced
  • 1 large sweet potato, cut up in a large dice
  • 2 or 3 cloves of garlic, finely diced
  • 1 cup of peas
  • 1 regular (14.5 oz) can of diced tomatoes
  • 3 tablespoons of curry paste
  • 2 tablespoons of cumin powder
  • 1 tablespoon of turmeric powder
  • 2 bouillon cubes (I use Knorr Vegetable Bouillon)
  • Salt and black pepper to taste

Directions

  1. Heat up 2 tablespoons of vegetable oil in a large pot ( I used my trusty 9.5 qt Le Creuset French Oven) on high heat.
  2. Saute the onions, carrots and red and green bell pepper until translucent and starting to brown.
  3. Add the garlic and mix it well so it is well incorporated with the rest of the vegetables.
  4. Add the cauliflower and saute for about 3-5 minutes more until the cauliflower starts to brown a little.
  5. Add the tomato, bouillon, curry paste and 10-12 cups of water.
  6. Add the sweet potato and peas.
  7. Add the cumin and turmeric and stir really well.
  8. Once the soup comes to a boil, taste the broth and add salt and pepper to taste. Then reduce the heat to medium-high and simmer for about 30-45 minutes or until the sweet potatoes are good and soft.

Serving Suggestions:

I think this soup would be delicious drizzled with a little coconut milk. Also, you might try serving over a scoop of basmati rice. Finally, I always find curry soups benefit quite a bit from a sprinkling of fried shallots.  Enjoy.

Wheeee!